The Struggle

Today was my second day back to my regular weekday program. It has been tough holding the show together while in my current state. My concentration is a bit off and my energy is at times low. But I try as best I can to keep things entertaining.

I'm trying to keep myself busy to help get my mind off of things. I'm working on several projects now, and I've even drawn out a list of things to do in my spare time. Hopefully that'll keep me from getting into a rut.

It's really the silent times that get to me. When I'm alone in the booth while a sad song is playing... When I just get into the car, or when I've just parked... Those are when I'm most vulnerable to breaking down.

I miss my daughter. Nothing can ever replace her. So while I look forward to the day that we'll be together again, I'll just try to stay as productive as possible.